Getting Stable
I went to the doctor and got antibiotics yesterday. I always ask them what my weight was the last time I was there. I had lost 8 pounds since the last time I was there. It was a nice reminder at a time when I needed a mental uplift. Even though I fluctuated up a little, I am still way down from where I used to be.
This week had its ups and downs. It was a difficult week in some ways but a victorious week in others. For one, I went to work every day, cooked dinner every night, took care of myself, and was a very present parent to the kids - and so on. I did not sink into the abyss of depression. I stayed alive. Very important basic stuff.
I am focused on stabilization. Stablizing my emotions. Keeping my routine, and taking care of my immediate responsibilities and needs. That is stability to me right now.
My sister is coming tomorrow. I am going to go to a party with her for one of her friend's 50th. I think it will be nice to go and see people I don't really know and some that I may know a little. A nice change. I have not made any other plans for the weekend. I want to stay home. I like home. It is safe and secure.
I just re-read an AFG post, and I am going to use a quote today, in my head, as a mantra - "just when the caterpiller thought the world was over, it became a butterfly" - that's exactly what I need to hear today. Thanks go to L.G. for the posting!
I am very glad it's Friday!
This week had its ups and downs. It was a difficult week in some ways but a victorious week in others. For one, I went to work every day, cooked dinner every night, took care of myself, and was a very present parent to the kids - and so on. I did not sink into the abyss of depression. I stayed alive. Very important basic stuff.
I am focused on stabilization. Stablizing my emotions. Keeping my routine, and taking care of my immediate responsibilities and needs. That is stability to me right now.
My sister is coming tomorrow. I am going to go to a party with her for one of her friend's 50th. I think it will be nice to go and see people I don't really know and some that I may know a little. A nice change. I have not made any other plans for the weekend. I want to stay home. I like home. It is safe and secure.
I just re-read an AFG post, and I am going to use a quote today, in my head, as a mantra - "just when the caterpiller thought the world was over, it became a butterfly" - that's exactly what I need to hear today. Thanks go to L.G. for the posting!
I am very glad it's Friday!
posted by Cindy at
10:32 AM
3 Comments:
Time is the real Weed killer. I used to uhh, hold hands, with people I wouldn't walk across the street to shake hands with now. Perspective grows at a snails pace, but it grows. Like wise stability. You are doing a fine job being stable. Hugs
Some weeks, it's good to look back and just be glad we made it through and they are over, isn't it?
Hope you get to enjoy your weekend. HUGS.
you may find this useful:
http://www.businessballs.com/maslowhierarchyofneeds5.pdf
my therapist shared it with me when I shared that I had come to accept that I did BETTER with what I call "my small world".
I identified with your posting.
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