Thursday, March 08, 2007

Bread is Bad

Like Bananas, bread is not good for me. I feel the weight of it in my digestive system. It is a sluggish, heavy feeling. It is a food to avoid. Even the healthy looking whole grains do the same thing to me. I should be a Kay Sheppard convert by now, but still have to experiment and suffer the consequences from time to time. I want to remember this heavy, overloaded feeling for next time I am tempted by the office bagels, the homemade cookies, etc. Even though the amount I eat is less now than before, the impact is the same. Usually when I eat these things it is an impulse serving. And, it is difficult to control the portion, because once I get a taste, the compulsion to eat more of it sets in. Even if it no longer turns into a binge, it still fouls up the plan for the day and the negative effects on my system linger for quite some time.

I know I write about the insanity of food choices from time to time. That is, the insanity of eating something I know I will regret and somehow secretly thinking the I won't mind the consequences. It is a learning process and a gradual enlightenment for me. I try to be much more gentle with myself these days and tell myself what the nice ladies at a support group used to say "you'll do better next time." It is a minute by minute deal with me, each day. The choice is there at each meal, and at each episode of temptation. The weighing of the consequences. There really is no benefit to bread or bananas that would outweigh this yucky feeling, but it's that little insanity that pushes through sometimes and sways me to the unfortunate choice.

I love the days when I can just walk past these temptations, building up my trust in the new way of life. And I love the days when I am prepared and stick to my plan. These other days, well, they just have to pass, quickly I hope. But until they do, I will keep writing about them. And reminding myself that I do not like the feeling I get after I indulge in these certain foods. Right now it's bread, bagel, cookie whatever. Most likely the flour.

I will just have to flush it out with lots of water and exercise, try harder, and believe that yes, I will do better next time!

5 Comments:

Blogger Vickie said...

In the freezer section of your grocery or health food store - there is a whole line of Ezekiel Bread - it's sprouted - and I don't know why that makes a difference - but it does. If you have access to a freezer/toaster oven at work - you could leave some there.

2:02 PM  
Blogger Cindy said...

Wow, thanks - I had heard of Ezekiel but did not know it was in the frozen section. Never saw it with the bread.

3:13 PM  
Blogger Bea said...

Cindy this is not directly food related. How did you change your blog? Did the template tab allow you to do all this?

New home, new opportunities, new body, new blog. Makes perfect sense.

3:21 PM  
Blogger Cindy said...

When you sign in on your "dashboard" there is place to click on "templates" and I just selected another. I did it when I was trying to add that ticker snake at the top. I was just fooling around and ended up changing it.

3:40 PM  
Blogger Grumpy Chair said...

I like that beula. Love your new look. I use the Ezekiel Low Sodium bread. It is very tasty. It is in the health food section of the grocery store (I buy it at Krogers).

10:08 PM  

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