Danger Zone

I know I am in the danger zone. I need to pull in the heavy artillery. Yesterday I had a rather sad meeting with a real estate agent. She's a good agent, but the news was not good. It would be a miracle to get enough money for my house to pay my loan and pay her fee. I have not listed yet, just want to look at all options. But I am going to put it on the market ASAP. I feel so stressed and a whole bunch of other emotions. I fell into some old behavior last night. I ordered pizza for my daughter and a friend, and I had probably two whole peices. I wanted to eat stuff. I wanted to find the right stuff to eat to make the stress go away. But there is no food to take away reality or stress, and I can't even get comfort from it. So I had the pizza and went to bed. I stressed until I slept and I woke up with the same stressing and anxiety.

I want to detach from the stress and move on, focus on something else. Make decisions and then focus on something else. Something positive. I am going to have to turn to something else or I will turn to eating nervously and ruin my progress. I am not going to let this whole lousy situation take away my progress and spill into every other aspect of my life. I just can't do that to myself. I feel bleak right now. The sky is grey and it is cold outside. The trees are bare and the light is dim. I want to find a warm cozy spot in my mind to hang onto, and ride this out. Think positive I keep telling myself but I see right now is thousands of dollars going down the toilet.

But I don't have to add additional body fat to the picture. In fact I could confirm my resolve to lose and fight back with weight loss.