A New Me?
I finally did the full winter inventory, taking all the winter clothes out of the storage and seeing what to keep and what to give away. I purged almost everything that was XL in sweaters and tops. I kept a couple of comfy things - an old worn sweater and a big fleece sweatshirt. I am officially out of the XL category as far as I can tell. It does not seem real. I also have no pants or skirts over a size 14 to my knowledge, most of my jeans are now a size 12 but in the stretch category. So I must be out of plus size now. It does not seem believable to me. But when I took inventory of my weight history (again) I realized that when I was buying some of those clothes I weighed as much as 24 pounds more than I do today. So that should make a significant size change. But it has been a gradual change. I was not that happy with the fit of a lot of my clothes, some baggy in places and some tight in others. My working out needs to get regular again to smooth out these irregularities and make me feel fit. I feel baggy and saggy. When I am working out regularly, I feel fit, even if I am still a bit baggy and saggy.
So the changes I started making and have continued to make have produced results. I also notice that my portions are adjusted now. I get full after less food. Finally!! Sometimes I still want more. But I feel satisfied with less. One day I found myself taking the normal sized portion of soup (actually following the label's recommendation) and not being able to finish. It just doesn't seem real for a person like me. There must be a new me emerging. But I find myself still wanting to shrink back and hide in my cocoon. What would a new me be? All this time I have been thinking I just wanted my old body back, the pre-weight gain body. Now I realize that this is a new and different body and a changed person with a new attitude toward not just food, but life and other things. All I can say right now is Wow. Not the big exclamation "Wow!" but the slow, pondering "Wow..." and maybe a long and hesitant "hmmmmm", too.
So the changes I started making and have continued to make have produced results. I also notice that my portions are adjusted now. I get full after less food. Finally!! Sometimes I still want more. But I feel satisfied with less. One day I found myself taking the normal sized portion of soup (actually following the label's recommendation) and not being able to finish. It just doesn't seem real for a person like me. There must be a new me emerging. But I find myself still wanting to shrink back and hide in my cocoon. What would a new me be? All this time I have been thinking I just wanted my old body back, the pre-weight gain body. Now I realize that this is a new and different body and a changed person with a new attitude toward not just food, but life and other things. All I can say right now is Wow. Not the big exclamation "Wow!" but the slow, pondering "Wow..." and maybe a long and hesitant "hmmmmm", too.
posted by Cindy at
10:56 AM
6 Comments:
The best thing about loosing weight is smaller clothes, smaller clothes = more room in the closet !! Congrates on your NSV !
thanks, I feel silly but what does NSV stand for? thanks, again!
Cindy, that's great news. You are really doing a great job with the food, exercise and the emotions. I'm really happy for you!
Wow - size 12!!! Whippie!!! When I can wear size 12 jeans, I am gonna dance around the house like Beyonce.
When I put out my winter clothes, I kept most of my long sleeve tops. As I have needed to wear them, they are all too big, so I finally got rid of all the 1X tops yesterday morning.
Great job on knowing when to stop because you are full and not continuing to eat because there is still some left.
I wonder what NSV is too - ???
I loved this post - could really relate.
I had to look up NSV. I found a number of things but I think Annieann77 means Non-Scale Victory.
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