Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Taking Care of My own Business

After a day of rest yesterday I am feeling better. I still have the cold. I am working a half of a day. One thing that may have impacted me over the weekend was the medicine that the doctor gave me to take at night for my back pain. It is a narcotic. Although I took it at night and slept through it I think that it may have had an impact on me. In addition to having so many things going on at once, being sick, being injured and so on. Today I am focusing on one thing at a time. Whatever it is I need to do first. My weight is stable, which is nice. I did not feel like overeating, I just felt like screaming at people.

I need to make sure I take the medicine that the doctors prescribe so I get better. I do not have to take the narcotic. I can take something else instead. But I do need to take the stuff for my sinus condition and my arthritis. It is all part of taking care of myself. A common theme with me.
Whenever I start thinking of someone else's problems I am now steering my thoughts to my own situation. I ask myself "what do you need to do for your own life right now?" Or something like that. I am retraining my thinking. Or I can ask "what can you do to take care of yourself right now?" I may have to make a list of questions. Anything to get the focus out of other people's business and into my own.

So for today I am taking care of my own business. I got an extension on the rental car so I don't feel rushed about buying a car. I took my medicines. I did a little bit of exercise. I have healthy food to eat. I am drinking lots of water and taking one task at a time to do a good job at work.

More will be revealed.

2 Comments:

Blogger Laura N said...

Oh Cindy, I am sorry about everything with your brother. You are doing the right thing. You can't fix him, and he's beyond help you can provide. You put him back in God's hands and that's where he belongs.

With all you are going through, it's amazing you haven't had to check yourself into the hospital yourself. The narcotics can definitely mess with your mental health, so hopefully the other pain meds will work better for you.

What a victory you are having over food. The fact that you aren't running to it in large quantities for comfort is a testament to how healthy you are, mentally and physically. One of the hard parts for me is *feeling* the bad stuff. I much prefer it just go away, which is what ice cream and cookies and cake always did for me. Now it just makes me feel guiltly when I over indulge, so I guess I've fixed that part of me a little bit (still needs work, though).

But, I'm definitely living a better life because of my antidepressent and my xanax. I take the xanax when I am wound up tight and about to jump down everyone's throats, and it chills me out just enough (thankfully I only need it a few times a month when my hormones are whacky). I used to eat food to get that feeling. "Better living through chemicals" is a good thing (at least for me).

12:34 PM  
Blogger Vickie said...

I am so glad that things are going a little better - and that you figured out part of the 'why' and took care of it. I can see that narcotics would really mess things up. will be thinking about you. hugs.

7:44 AM  

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