Steroids and stuff

Last week after my sewar backed up - in fact the same day, a drain at the house I own but do not live in was backing up so that night I had to go meet a drain guy and pay $300 to get it taken care of. Luckily no damage to floors or carpets or anything. We caught it in time. I have gotten sicker and sicker. I went to a specialist. I most likely will have surgery on my nose when my hideous sinus infection clears. He gave me prednisone which I am scared of for the weight gain. Today is my second day. This morning I weighed 159 so I am ok for today. I feel some bloating and I am drinking tons of water. I do not feel my appetite has increased but then, I always have a pretty good appetite. The dose is relatively low. It feels like it may be helping already.

I have been in constant pain. My behavior at work with my boss last week caused a problem for me, too long of a story to tell. It exhausts me to even think about it. But it's over. We have gone over all my problems and addressed them all. I still have a job. Yay.

I have not worked out at the gym for two weeks. I have done very little exercising. All I have been doing is trying to get better. Did not see Man friend over the weekend which was a nice break. I am having some insecurities over that relationship and we have hit a couple of little bumps but still want to keep on with it for now. I think I needed a break. He had his daughters over for the first time since Christmas and we have not gotten involved in that area yet. So I did my own thing. I was glad of it. I do miss him but I am wanting to step back a little for now. We can see each other this weekend. And it will be nice after a separation. Short of a couple of brief drop ins, I have not spent any time with him in almost two weeks now. But we talk almost every day. Right now even a boyfriend I enjoy seems like too much pressure at times.

I am worried about weight gain and the steroids. I will be on them 10 days. I want to log in more and keep track of food better especially now. Today has gone well for food. I hope drink plenty of water and lay off the solid stuff this evening. I am afraid I will blow up like a balloon and then be really really depressed and I have enough trouble right now. So any input on the steroid thing would be greatly appreciated!