Pressing On

Last night I slept longer than I have slept all week. As far as I can tell I slept at least 8 hours. I feel much better. My little fluctuation was gone, too, and I feel like I can maybe, just maybe, have a loss this week if I keep my eating sane for the rest of the week. I am following my usual pattern. I lose a few pounds, and then I maintain that loss after fluctuating a little, and then I move on to a new loss.

Rest has been my main goal this week. I was so wiped out at the end of my work day that I could not even fathom yoga. My daughter was home sick and I went home. I can make up my yoga class on Monday. I did not mind missing it because I was way too tired for anything. I feel today like the rest has made a positive impact on how I feel mentally, emotionally and physically. I feel very optimistic today. I had gotten into the bagels at work yesterday, but caught myself and tried to balance it by eating less in the evening. I think it worked. Today there is yet another spread of food in a department nearby that I walk past often. I have decided that it does not exist for me today. I look the other way. I saw fruit, and veggies but I even get in trouble with fruit. I built some fruit into my plan today, but it won't be until very late in the day. I don't want to be near that food spread no matter what.

There is a heavy rain today. It is having that soothing effect again. I hear it against my window here at the office and it sounds nice. The grey dimness of it all is restful. Last night I felt so overwhelmed but I knew that it was a feeling and that the facts of my life had not changed. I knew it was a state of mind, and that if I just got some rest and did not dive into the panic of it all, it would pass. And it did. I have an acquisition closing tomorrow for my job. It is pretty intense but it is going good. I feel like this is a test for me and that I am passing.

So, I am pressing on with my weight loss efforts. I have been craving a shopping trip for summer clothes. I put on a pair of last year's capri's and they were kind of baggy but wearable. I am not allowing myself to buy clothes until I get to the final loss. It is not too far off so I believe I can wait. It is a nice incentive for now.

For today I am going to hold on to my optimistic feeling and my firm resolve to press on no matter what. No matter if it is rainy, or if I am a little sick, or if I am tired or if everyone else is in a bad mood. No matter what I can take care of myself and be true to my own personal goal. On AFG a few days ago I read this phrase in the posting on virtues "protecting our own hearts from the feeling of doing wrong" Today I want to protect my heart from the feeling of doing wrong to myself by compromising my goals and aspirations and from the wrong of neglecting my own needs.

Happy Thursday!!

PS my administrative assistant just popped her head in my door and said that I really look good and she is sure my boyfriend must think I am a "knock-out" - geez I really needed that one. I was feeling frumpy. Always seems when I feel frumpy someone comes through with a weight loss comment...